If my life had a soundtrack.......

This is truly the story of my life lol. Trying to wait patiently for love but sometimes it can get hard.

If my life had a soundtrack.......

Love this song! I think some people are sleeping on Christian Alternative music. I love it and my radio station K-love is amazing!!!!

Very interesting.....

Mother to Son

This poem inspired me for my high school graduation speech..... Oh the memories


Well, son, I'll tell you:
Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
It's had tacks in it,
And splinters,
And boards torn up,
And places with no carpet on the floor—
Bare.
But all the time
I'se been a-climbin' on,
And reachin' landin's,
And turnin' corners,
And sometimes goin' in the dark
Where there ain't been no light.
So, boy, don't you turn back.
Don't you set down on the steps.
'Cause you finds it's kinder hard.
Don't you fall now—
For I'se still goin', honey,
I'se still climbin',
And life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
-Langston Hughes

Phenomenal Woman

By Maya Angelou

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

If my life had a soundtrack.......

Love it! So inspiring!

KEEP YOUR FAITH!

Encouragement on weight loss journey

So I will be doing my youtube video later (have a very busy day today). But until then I wanted to post this bible verse my friend gave me for encouragement.

Matthew 7:24-27

24"Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. 26But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. 27The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash."

In my earlier posts I talked about how I am trying to be healthy to continue my purpose God has for me. I know everything I do is to glorify Him even my exercising and my weight loss journey. This parable that Jesus talks about truly makes me think about how we need to build a strong foundation in everything we do. My whole life I have been trying to find quick fixes for my weight loss. Though I have been able to lose it but was it healthy?! No it wasn't! I truly believe Weight Watchers is helping me to build my foundation to live a healthier life style. Not only am I making wise choices but I am learning how to live-it whether than diet. With this foundation that I am building on a rock when the wind comes (temptation, loss of self motivation, busyness) my house will be strong enough to with stand it. Keeping my eye on the goal, prayer in my heart, and Jesus on my team! I can and will be healthier even if its slowly but surely.

Living my Life like its GOLDEN!!!

I have been thinking about if my life had its own soundtrack what sounds would be on there.... Well I feel like this song would be 1-5 on the CD....... Love it! I am truly living my life like its GOLDEN. Because I never know what may happen to me. I am type of person who wakes up motivated to inspire or be inspired. I believe everyday there is a purpose for us to fulfill. Once we have lived up to our purpose it is time for us to be called home. So everyday I thank God for waking me up to live out His will and hopefully I can touch someone's life w/my smile or someone else can make me smile :o)

I heart reading!!!!!!

So today I went to Walmart to pick up a few things and to start my day off right. Every time I am in Walmart I always over buy things (I have a problem with that lol). While I was at my Weight Watchers meeting, they were talking about their recipe books that they had and all the yummy food they were making. So you know me I love to buy recipe books even though I can't cook lol. So that was my reasoning to walk over to the book section of Walmart and lets say I was just grabbing all types of books to read.

Reading has always been one of my favorite hobbies since I was younger. My little sister use to call me Matilda because of all the reading I use to do. I do not what it does but reading brings me so much JOY!!!!!!! One of goals after I get a big girls job is to find a book club to join. Aw I am so excited about that!!!!! Well here is the list of books I bought:

-The Five People You Meet in Heaven

-Remember Me?

-Big Girl

Love this poem! Makes you stop and think people need to know the history of the n-word

I have been natural for a year and a day lol!!!!!!

Look at my before and after pics!!!!!!! Amazing! I am so happy and my hair is so beautiful!!! This has been a learning experience for me and I loved every minute of it!

My hardest struggle

So recently I have been worrying alot about EVERYTHING in my life. I think the root of this worrying is because this is my last year in grad school and I have to start the whole job search thing. I just get so nervous! Like I keep comparing my skills to others that are in my program and I feel as though I am not the best candidate. I have a lot to improve on w/my position and I just wish I can stop looking to the negative things and start seeing how I am good at my job and start improving on things (like the administration stuff). I am so blessed that I need to stop worrying and start putting it in my Father's hands.

I have started reading (only read chapter 1 so far but it is good) The power of a praying woman by Elizabeth George. I know for a fact once I improve my 1-1 time with the Lord and truly start getting serious with my prayer life then my whole life will start getting better and I will no doubt stop worrying. This morning the Lord gave me this verse that I need to truly memorize when I start worrying about my future:


Jeremiah 29:11-13
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

I know for a fact that my Father will not let me fail as long as I am giving Him my WHOLE heart. So today is a new day and I starting my day right with putting my Father first and not worrying what will come.

One of the reasons why I love Jill Scott!

Beautiful Flower

We are all beautiful!!!!

I am not my hair!

So my friend did my hair last night, because I told her I was getting tired of my TWA. She gave me some coils!!!! Tell me if you like them or not. I think it makes me look mature!!!! I am rocking my Mary Kay make up so I feel oh so Diva at work lol. Really can't see them (sorry about that).

Don't Even Know lol

So I wanted to write a new blog but I didn't know what to name it lol. Anyways, I wanted to share with you all some things that people have told me these past couple of weeks that I thought was interesting..................



So I have been/WAS talking to this guy for a minute kind of.... It was to the point where he told me I was wifey material (ladies just because he say this doesn't mean anything at all because I have had PLENTY of boys tell me I was wifey but I am still single because NONE of them was husband material through my eyes and God's).



Ok back to the story: So I told ole boy that I cut all of my hair off and have been natural for about 4 months. He said he was curious to see how I look now, so I sent him a picture (this is where everything went down hill lol). So asked him to be honest about what he thought about my picture. He said it was "different and it is something to get use to" Ok cool I understand that but he kept going!!!!! He gonna tel me "Don't worry your hair will grow back" EXCUSE ME!!!!!!!! I am not worried whether or not my hair is going to grow back, I mean it will be nice for my hair to grow back but right now I am embracing my natural beauty, the beauty that God has blessed me with! If I am suppose to be wifey shouldn't you appreciate me outside and in no matter what?!



I just don't understand why society is so on the way people look. We are so quick to judge one another based on our looks then anything else. I mean the most "fly" person in the world can have a horrible attitude/personality but you rather be with that person because they have sex appeal?! All I have to say is "Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain, But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised." (Proverbs 31:30)



Ok so the other day I met this girl who seemed really cool and everything. She came by the halls to say goodbye to all of her friends before she left for Turkey to go teach. I was interested in her teaching job that she got in Turkey (cause you know I am trying to move abroad and work some day). She was saying how good this job was how they were paying for her flight and if she didn't like it they would fly her back to the US for free and all this other stuff. I was thinking wow this is the job! So I asked her how did she find out about this amazing opportunity. Why in the world this girl told me that she found it on CRAIG'S LIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Man when she told me that I just pray that I didn't have a look on my face because in my mind I was thinking that she was crazy!!!!!! Why in the world would you fly across the world to a job that you don't know that much about that you found on freaking Craig's list. Well I'm going to pray for her because who knows what she has gotten herself into.

Now this is my last crazy/random story that I have for you all. So as all of you know I am natural and loving every minute of it. Right now my hair is so short that I cannot do any styles to it but a TWA. So sometimes I get bored with my hair. So I have been looking for products that will enhance my natural curls so they can POP! Well yesterday I went to bible study and met this girl who was natural as well and her curls were POPPING!!!! So I asked her what products could I use to enhance my curls (and this girl does hair so I was thinking she would know what she is talking about). Why did she tell me to put a perm in my head for a little bit and to loosen up my curls?! I AM NOT PUTTING ANY PERMS IN MY HEAD! If I wanted to do all of that, why did I cut my hair. She gave me another product to use but I highly doubt I'm gonna use that. Goodness I am turning away from chemicals, not welcoming them back into my beautiful hair. So I guess I will continue to rock my TWA until further notice lol

Essence of a Black Woman

You can see the essence of a black woman when she walks into a room.
Her beauty is like a flower that blooms.
She doesn't need a man to be strong,
Because she remains a woman all on her own.
She overcomes challenges that stands in her way.
The inner strength she has gets her through the day.
She continues to triumph with elegance and grace.
While being a double jeopardy because of her sex and her race.
She is a goal oriented woman with style and confidence.
She never forgets where she comes from and for that she is blessed.
She has faith in God and not ashamed to acknowledge his presence in her life.
She can testify that without him she could never endure any sacrifice.
This black woman of beauty is the mother of all.
And for that we should be proud and stand tall.
Everyone around her can feel her presence.
For she is a Black woman of essence.
~ Kathy L. Martin

Saved & Single

I need to read this everyday when I am feeling lonely and wondering if I will be found by my husband that GOD will send for me......


~ Author Unknown~

What makes you think that just because I am an attractive woman of Godly intelligence

that I'm incomplete without a mate?

Who told you that without a man

something's missing from my life?

and if so, what would that be?

Love?

I love myself

And more importantlyI love the Lord

He told me that when I delight in Him,

he will give me the desires of my heart

Security?

I have everything I need according to His riches in glory.

Intimacy?

Now, how's a man going to get to know me

When he doesn't even know who he is in the Lord

See my Father told me I'm above a ruby's worth

And a gem does not seek it is sought

I'm single and that's all right with me

See, it's not that I oppose relationships

it's that I detest co-dependency

as a woman I know it is not my role
to chase after any man

Esther 2:14 reads That I am to wait on my king and when he's delighted in me. He will call me by my name.

My Lord does not intend for me to be needy or desperate.

I am to be Cherished, Relished, Valued, and Honored,

It's not my job to convince him

Or Convict him of that,

My mate will already know it

And consistently show it

And he will stay on his knees daily

Not just to adore me

But to praise the Lord for

The virtuous woman he has found

So, when you see me by myself

I'm not aloneI know what I have coming to me

I'm single and saved, and right now that's all I need to be!

My Bucket List!!!!!!

Here are some things I wanna do in my lifetime:

• go sky diving
• live on the west coast (either Seattle or San Fran)
• white water rafting
• visit every state
• live in London, England (for 3months- year)
• live in Mexico(to learn Spanish lol)
• get my PhD (not right away)
• become a mini van mom (I am really excited about this but only if God is willing)
• run a mile (right now run is not in my vocab)
• get my masters in:

-Counseling

-Teaching (math maybe)

-College Student Personnel Administration (coming in May 2010)

• work at an HBCU
• work in Orientation(or work with)
• design a program that will solve the problem of the revolving door for all minorities in college
• become director of Multicultural Affairs at a university (still deciding about my career path)
• teach a college class (might be doing this, this fall)
• become a fitness instructor (either step or zumba)
• start a scholarship for phenomenal women @ Maple Heights High School
• become a cheerleader coach
• visit:

-Madrid, Spain

-Paris

-Italy

-Kenya(use my Kiswahili)

-just basically travel the world

• teach an algebra class
• take up ballroom dancing
• go on the Disney cruise
• go camping(need to find some friends for this one because I am too much of a chicken to go by myself)
• go backpacking
• take a self defense class
• take 5 cycling classes (I am scared its going to hurt my booty)
• touch or inspire one person

I am a Superwoman! But I still need some sleep

The day in the Life of a RHDiva

I am so sorry to all my blog followers (Jessica!) that I have not been keeping you updated on my life so far lol. I have been crazy busy nowadays. Right now I am like almost falling asleep in my office :o). Gosh this week has basically flown by and I am so not ready for next week but hey it won't be as busy as this week.

Well on Tuesday we did CA hiring and it was so freaking stressful for me!!!! I was tearing up in the meeting cause I didn't know who to hire and who not to hire. Then at the end of the day I had to tell one of my Ca's that she wasn't being hired for the next school year. Do you know how stressful that was?! We were both crying in my apartment. I told her that there is a possibility that she will get hired before the school year, but man that was so hard for me to do. I think that is the hardest thing about being a Hall Director is hiring because there are alot of great candidates but you cannot hire everybody.

Lets see, how is school going?! Well it is going for sure..... I need to get started on writing some of my papers so I don't have to worry about them further on down the road. Gosh I am so over school right now but I have to finish this semester strong and continue on to next year....... But hey I am having a great time w/all the friends I have met and it is truly a stepping stone for myself.

Gosh, spring break is just around the corner!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And guess what I will be doing?! I will be writing not one, not two, but 3 papers lol!!!! Good times I know! I wanted to visit OSU for spring break but that is their finals week and I didn't want to be a bother to anyone. But I think since I do get out of school in May I was thinking about going to visit then. Gosh I miss my Osu folks so freaking bad!!!!!!

Inspiration

I am reading this book called A WOMAN AFTER GOD'S OWN HEART and I highly advise everyone to read it. It is such a great book and has allowed me to see that I need to build my relationship with God much much much stronger. There is a chapter that talks about how we should be commited to prayer for us to grow in our faith, this is the area that I slack off in is my 1-1 time with the Lord. So for everyone's inspiration I am gonna leave the verse that is the start of this chapter:

"I will lift up my eyes to the hills- from whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord." Psalm 121:1-2

So when you are feeling down and out just look up and take a moment to ask for the Lord's help and I promise you won't feel nervous, worried, anxious, sad, you will feel a calmness take over you.