Confessions

So I was inspired to do this post by another blogger.  I mean the truth can only set me free right?!

Here are my confessions:

1. I am tired of being the biggest girl in my group of friends, classmates, coworkers, and family
2. When I am working out I imagine me at a healthier weight and shocking everyone back at home who talked about me picking up weight since high school
3. The word Fat cuts me everytime I here someone say it and I always wonder what type of things they say about me behind closed doors
4. I yo-yoed my whole life and I have clothes to prove it (I have clothes ranging from size 8-22)
5. I use to take water pills and other diet pills to lose my weight
6. One summer all I ate was baked potatoes and salad to lose weight
7. Its a struggle for me to eat fruits in my daily routine
8. When I am working out, I am nervous that my boobs may hit me in my eye (lol)
9. I have a true addiction to food and I can be mean/moody when I don't eat or when people mess with my food without asking
10. I don't like to try on clothes in the dressing room because I am scared of how the clothes look on me
11. I can't stand going shopping with some of my friends because I cannot buy anything but accessories in most of the stores
12. This is my 3rd time doing Weight Watchers
13. I use to think that being skinner meant that I would be able to get a Man
14. I don't like to look at myself in the mirror when I am getting dressed
15. I think I am falling in love with working out but I am very nervous/scared that I will fall off track (and I really don't want to)
16. Weight Watchers has truly allowed me to change my mindset on alot of things
17. I took a body image class to teach myself how to love my body no matter what
18. I feel like I am really in charge of my body and I am loving every minute of it
19. I am addicted to signing up for 5ks
20. The weekends for me are horrible eating wise and I really want to stick to my plan
21. I dislike events that have food provided because I always binge

I feel like I have alot but that is just a sneak peek into my life and weight loss

Body Shots

This was me during winter break when I was at home.... 253.6lbs of me

This is me now (sorry if the pics are bad) 226.6lbs of me.

What do you think?  Can you tell any differences?

Check out the good news!!!!

Sorry my voice is delayed

Sad day at weight watchers today ;'(

Accessories make the outfit!

So I just got hip to this website Etsy Let me tell you it is amazing!!!!!!!

It is a website for people to sell their handmade items. I fell in love with it the minute I discovered the website.

I have found some shirts and dresses that are so adorable! But wait this is not the reason why I started this post lol. Just recently I found out that my friend designs and makes accessories!!!! Amazing, I know! In my opinion accessories truly make up the outfit. I mean come on, you know when you put on some FABULOUS earrings it just make you look so DIVA! Plus if you are rocking the natural look, you are always trying to find some earrings that will make your style even more WONDERFUL! Well my friend's work is DA BOMB! All of you have to check her work out. Not only does she do a great job but she is such a sweet heart. Check out her products here:

Sweet and Spicy

Tell me what you think!

New clothing site I found.

So I am trying to "enhance" my style. Recently I have been finding all types of plus size and natural hair blogs that I am loving. All of these blogs have introduce me to new worlds that I am embracing! I am so excited! I have so many choices of clothing stores and also hair products.

This site that I found was the one that helped me identify what body shape I was which is truly a life saver. IGIGI


On this site you can figure out what your body type is by answering some questions and it also gives you suggestions for clothes that you can wear and also clothes you shouldn't wear.



I believe you should check it out if you want to learn more about your body and even look at some of their clothes. In my opinion their clothes are for more of the sophisticated DIVA but if you are trying to step your GROWN WOMAN up then for sure check it out. Also be aware it is a little pricey but you might catch something in their sale section.

I highly suggest you go on this sight to understand your body type so when you do go shopping at a store you will know what types of clothing enhances your thickalicous curves.

If you are a FABULOUS FIGURE 8 like myself her are some tips the website has provided for us:


What to wear

• Ruffles or softly draped details over the bust and neckline
• Open collars, asymmetrical details, v-neck, or styles that expose the neckline
• Wide, empire waist belts to emphasis more on waistline
• Bottoms that are darker in color, a-line, or flared skirts

What not to wear

• Light colored tops paired with dark bottoms
• Styles with horizontal stripes, heavy pleating, ruffles, or extra details at the midsection
• High necklines
• Short length tops

Here is a video of a purple dress that I love!!!!!!

A F.A.T. Girl is tired of shopping at Lane Bryant.... I am bout to switch my style up!

That's right I'm F.A.T.- Fabulous and Thick! And I am frustrated!!!!!!!!!!!! I absolutely love to go shopping and puting different outfits together. But with my size its been kind of difficult for me to do this especially living in a Midwest town where the biggest thing is Walmart. I am not knocking Walmart or anything because I have seen quite a few cute things for thick divas at Walmart. But the Walmart near me does not have any cute choices for me. So I have to go shopping online to find some cute clothes for myself...... But that gets so freaking expensive and I have to wait such a long time.

Ok I kind of went off on a tangent but anyways back to my real frustration. I went to Lane Bryant the other day because I needed a some new jeans. And I decided to splurge a little on myself while I was there. So this is how I shop: I walk into the store walk around a little and look at everything. If something stands out I grab and it and try it on. Well yesterday was truly interesting. I went into LB and was walking around and everything in there was not my style at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was all clothes that would make me look way older than what I am. I mean dang I already look older because of my weight so I am not trying to put on clothes that would add more years to me. There were 2 things (yes only 2) that I would actually buy. That is just sad!!!!!!!!!!! I am not going to say that I am giving up on LB but I have decided to take a step back from it. Not only is it expensive but it really doesn't have a variety of choices for a 20 something DIVA like myself.

I have started "researching" different stores, boutiques, and things that are geared to Thick ladies like myself and I am so happy that I did. I realized there are other choices for myself other than Old Navy, Lane Bryant, and Torrid. I am about to go on an online shopping spree when I get paid. Now that I know my body shape, I can start buying different clothes that will look FABULOUS on my body!!!!!!


Sidenote: So last night I sent my exboyfriend a text apologizing for any hurt I caused him while we were together. I have no idea why I did this but I kind of wish that I didn't. Don't you hate that?! When you do something and then later you wish you hadn't. Well anyways he sent me a text back today and said something (I choose not to read it lol) But I sent another one back telling him that he doesn't have to worry about hearing from me again and I wished him and his girl well. Ugh, I just wish I could just delete his number from my mind. I just don't understand why I am always lingering onto the past knowing that I am so much better than that. I truly think God is testing me on my contentment of being single and right now I am failing horribly!!!!!!!! I really need to take the time out and break all the soul ties that have in my life because they are not helping me to love Jesus w/all of my heart. They are just really holding me back........ I am praying about all of this and I know God will allow me to have a breakthrough in this situation.

I know my body shape!!!! Finally!

So I am starting to appreciate my thickalicousness to the next level. All through my life I have struggled with my weight and accepting that I was FABULOUS no matter what my pant size or scale said.



With this new chapter in my life, I am learning to love everything about myself. Being the "Diva" that I am, I just love fashion!!!! I love feeling good and looking good but I get so frustrated when I try to find some fly clothes. It has been hard for me for real!!!!! I am short, big chest, big stomach, big thighs, and a HUGE butt!!!!! So when I shop most of the time things would be to long for me or just wouldn't look right because of my stomach. There have been plenty of times that I cried in dressing rooms.



You know what?! No more tears are going to be shed when I am looking for my outfits!!!!!!! I have finally found what body type/shape I am!!!!!!!!!!!



I am a FIGURE 8 SHAPED DIVA!

Here is a little information about figure 8 body types taken from IGIGI:

Figure Eight Shape...

Outshining your hourglass shaped sister? Your body silhouette is amazingly curvaceous and not only do you share similar qualities as the hourglass, you also have the diamond, triangle, rectangle, oval, and inverted triangle infused into your unique shape. Your shoulders line up nicely with your overall silhouette and your voluptuous cleavage is one of your great assets. The definition in your waist is visible; however, you may have issues with your "love handles" and front bulge of your tummy area. Like the oval shape, the fullness is evenly distributed throughout your body. Also, the upper parts of your arms tend to be fuller while the lower parts of your arms are slender. Overall, you have great proportion to your body! Embrace your curves and work with what you've got! There are a lot trendy styles available that accentuate and complement your figure well. Take this information, shop for the right stuff, and strut your sassy figure eight shape.

My new scarf and earrings

Do you like?!

Wet Seal has plus size clothing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh My Goodness!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am super excited that Wet seal has plus size clothing now!!!!!! Now all I need is forever 21 to jump on the band wagon. I am about to be too fly again! Hey now!!!!!!!