OH my goodness I just ordered my first pair of shoes from Shoe Dazzle. I am so in love! Their name is Nikita and I am so pumped for them to come in the mail!!!!
June 28, 2010
June 25, 2010
June 24, 2010
50lbs GONE!!!!
I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE!!!!!!!!!
Since my New Years Resolution, I have lost 50lbs! Oh my goodness, It feels great to say that! So I decided to celebrate my achievement with this post about all the improvements I can tell since I have been losing weight.
Since my New Years Resolution, I have lost 50lbs! Oh my goodness, It feels great to say that! So I decided to celebrate my achievement with this post about all the improvements I can tell since I have been losing weight.
- I can cross my legs when I am sitting down! (I never did that before and now its a habit :o)
- I am wearing leggings and it doesn't even look bad
- I went from a size 22 to an 18
- Trying things on is not as much as a hassle
- My boobies shrank!!!! Though they are still big.....
- I can do a whole step aerobics class without stopping
- I love putting my hands on my hips to show off my shape
- I'm not ashamed to bend over to pick something up
- I like to look at myself in the mirror now
- People have told me that I am an inspiration (I was very emotional when they told me this)
- I LOVE working out now
- I stopped making up excuses when it comes to my weight
- I feel more confident
Those are some of the benefits I have notice since the weight loss. Though I still have a long journey ahead of me, but man oh man have I come a long way!
June 23, 2010
Interesting song
Have you all heard this song?! I was feeling really ugh about relationships but this song really made me think lol. I don't want to settle at all so I am waiting on God cause He knows what I need and if that means being by myself then hey I am gonna have to learn how to lean on Him with I am feeling lonely.
Verse 1
25% of all men are unstable
25% of all men can't be faithful
40% of them don't mean what they say and 2% of them don't remain and 20 is gay
that leaves you at 10% chance of ever finding your man
that means you better pay attention to these words that I say
I'm gonna teach you how to expose the 90% and show you
what to do to keep the other 10
Chorus
Rule # 1 don't be a booty call if he don't respect ya gurl he gone forget ya gurl
Rule 2 if he's in a relationship and he would cheat on her that means he would cheat you
Rule 3 tell him that your celibate and if he want some of goodies he gone have to work for it
Rule 4 be the person you want to find don't be a nickel out here looking for dime Statistics
Verse 2
15% of all men got a complex
15% of all men don't practice safe sex
20% of them come from homes without fathers
There's 50/50 chance that you'll marry a coward
Something to think about when your taking a shower
Something to swallow when you drink ya bottle water
I'm gonna teach how to expose the 90% and show you what to do to keep the other 10
Chorus
Rule # 1 don't be a booty call if he don't respect ya gurl he gone forget ya gurl
Rule 2 if he's in a relationship and he would cheat on her that means he would cheat on you
Rule 3 tell him that your celibate and if want some of ya goodies he gone have to work for it
Rule 4 be the person you want to find don't be a nickel out here loooking for a dime Statistics
Bridge
Be patient he's waiting
You don't have to settle for that
Leave all that stress alone
Get you a backbone
Stop feeling sorry for yourself
Chances make champions
Gonna take patience
Time still wasted
Chorus
Don't be a booty call if he don't respect ya gurl he gone forget ya gurl
Rule 2 if he's in a relationship and he would cheat on her that mean he would cheat on you
Rule 3 tell him that your celibate and if he want some of your goodies he gone have to work for it
Rule 4 be the person you want to find don't be a nickel out her looking for a dime Statistics Statistics Statistics
Verse 1
25% of all men are unstable
25% of all men can't be faithful
40% of them don't mean what they say and 2% of them don't remain and 20 is gay
that leaves you at 10% chance of ever finding your man
that means you better pay attention to these words that I say
I'm gonna teach you how to expose the 90% and show you
what to do to keep the other 10
Chorus
Rule # 1 don't be a booty call if he don't respect ya gurl he gone forget ya gurl
Rule 2 if he's in a relationship and he would cheat on her that means he would cheat you
Rule 3 tell him that your celibate and if he want some of goodies he gone have to work for it
Rule 4 be the person you want to find don't be a nickel out here looking for dime Statistics
Verse 2
15% of all men got a complex
15% of all men don't practice safe sex
20% of them come from homes without fathers
There's 50/50 chance that you'll marry a coward
Something to think about when your taking a shower
Something to swallow when you drink ya bottle water
I'm gonna teach how to expose the 90% and show you what to do to keep the other 10
Chorus
Rule # 1 don't be a booty call if he don't respect ya gurl he gone forget ya gurl
Rule 2 if he's in a relationship and he would cheat on her that means he would cheat on you
Rule 3 tell him that your celibate and if want some of ya goodies he gone have to work for it
Rule 4 be the person you want to find don't be a nickel out here loooking for a dime Statistics
Bridge
Be patient he's waiting
You don't have to settle for that
Leave all that stress alone
Get you a backbone
Stop feeling sorry for yourself
Chances make champions
Gonna take patience
Time still wasted
Chorus
Don't be a booty call if he don't respect ya gurl he gone forget ya gurl
Rule 2 if he's in a relationship and he would cheat on her that mean he would cheat on you
Rule 3 tell him that your celibate and if he want some of your goodies he gone have to work for it
Rule 4 be the person you want to find don't be a nickel out her looking for a dime Statistics Statistics Statistics
June 22, 2010
PMS Blues
So this week I have been so sluggish!!!! Ugh and you know why?! My monthly friend has come to visit me this week. Yesterday I had the worse case of the PMS Blues. I could not eat without it coming back up, I was dizzy, and just ugh all day. I did not do anything at all put lay in the bed.
With this I am not looking forward to my weigh in on Thursday....... I mean I am trying to get back into my regular routine but its hard with the PMS blues. Any ladies out there that can feel my pain?! How do you push through it and stay on track with your fitness and your eating?
For this week I am dedicating this Mary J. song to my month friend lol
With this I am not looking forward to my weigh in on Thursday....... I mean I am trying to get back into my regular routine but its hard with the PMS blues. Any ladies out there that can feel my pain?! How do you push through it and stay on track with your fitness and your eating?
For this week I am dedicating this Mary J. song to my month friend lol
June 21, 2010
Some new pics of me!!! With the before pics...
Before Pics (253lbs)
I was looking at my older pictures and videos and you can really see the difference in my face. I can't wait to see the final result of my journey :o). Tell me what you think!
June 18, 2010
June 17, 2010
100 things about me for my 100th post :o)
- I am named after my dad- Herbert
- I am afraid of tornados because when I was younger I use to watch Twister all the time
- I would do anything for my little sister (HerMaya)
- I love youtubing and blogging lol
- My mother gets on my nerves but I know I act just like her
- I cannot STAND driving
- I love it when people give me nicknames (it makes me feel accepted)
- I want to take parenting classes before I become a mother
- I get nervous everytime I talk or perform in front of people
- I have been natural for a 1 year and 4 months and I am just now starting to like my curl pattern
- I can't stand complete silence, I need some type of background noise
- Its hard for me to express my feelings/emotions to people
- I am always looking at the positive side of everything, though I wish I could see both sides of things
- I use to have a list of characteristics of what I wanted in a man, but I gave up on that and put it in the hands of God
- Sometimes its hard for me to say No
- I truly believe a smile can turn someone's day all the way around
- When people use the word "hate" it makes my skin crawl
- I love hard no matter the person (family, friend, coworker, staff, associate, significant other)
- I am addicted to facebook
- I LOVE trying new foods and restaurants
- I can be very random sometimes
- I love having company and visitors
- I cannot STAND being alone
- I'm lazy
- I love typing: lol, :o), <3 and anything else that is happy
- When I was at school I only watched two channels TNT and USA
- I cry alot (sometimes lol)
- I always forget to return my library books
- My fav bath and body works scent was Pearberry and ever since they discontinued it I haven't found a scent I can stick with
- I love shopping but dislike trying things on
- STRONGLY disliked my first year at OSU
- It gets on my nerves whenever people treat me like the HerBrina from high school lol, its been 6years.....
- Loves HUGE earrings
- Believes accessories make the outfit
- Love watching new movies
- The best part of going to the movies is watching the previews and if I miss it, I get upset
- I have a mean side to me but I don't like others to see it, unless you are irritating me
- Sometimes regrets getting the tweetybird tattoo on my arm
- wants to live on the beach
- has a short attention span when it comes to watching sports
- compares herself to everybody
- Finds it easy to encourage others than herself
- can eat a full jar of peanut butter in one sitting
- does not like talking on the phone, rather talk face to face
- wants a wrap around porch when I get a home
- Is learning how to cook ( I love trying recipes)
- Can watch Food Network all day
- Wonders if she already met her future husband.... (or if she will ever get married)
- swallowed a balloon on accident when I was 10
- Found out that I was allergic to animal fur when I went horse back riding at a Girl Scout Camp
- Loves to volunteer
- Dislikes socks
- Love my snuggie
- Disliked her lips when she was younger
- I like the shape of my eyes
- I want to join a book club
- My goal is to wear nothing but heels all the time
- wants a black pug (though I don't like pets lol)
- Played Wii for the first time a couple of weeks ago
- Cannot stand Watermelon
- Doesn't remember watching the Cosby's growing up
- Practices conversations/situations in my head before they happen
- Anti-Twitter
- Is always day dreaming
- Wants to live in another country for a year or so
- I can read way into things
- I love personalized notes/messages
- I get excited when I have a notification (on facebook)
- Can and will hold a full conversation via text message
- I don't have a fav color
- I <3 naps
- Nervous about her first professional job
- I have a horrible memory
- My goal is to become a lifetime member at Weight Watchers
- Drinks nothing but water
- Likes to have dance parties
- Loves flavor in her food
- I think I am allergic to my house- everytime I come home I break out
- I try to be the best woman/role model for my little sister
- Smiles for no reason
- I wish I had a personal fashion designer
- I want to empower all women
- Most of the music/songs I like truly speak to my soul
- I like to receive feedback to see how I can become a better person
- Made up my own game on facebook, whenever I get bored lol
- I google myself, all the time!!!!
- I was so disappointed to find out that I was not the only HerBrina
- I love to reflect on things and see how much I have grown
- I laugh at myself all the time
- Never really been on a date (they make me way nervous)
- Will never judge anyone at all
- I am scared to go skating because I don't like to fall (it hurts my booty)
- I am trying to teach myself how to be organized
- Rather hangout with her family, than go out
- I blush and you can really see me turn red
- Did not get my first job until I was a sophomore at OSU
- I do not know how to change a diaper
- I love buying gifts for people
- Some people think that I am reserve when they first meet me, I am only observing how others act and rather or not I want to make them my friend
- I am impress with myself for thinking up 100 things to type on this blog lol
I hope you enjoyed it!!!!
June 13, 2010
June 11, 2010
May 28, 2010
May 24, 2010
May 23, 2010
Feeling All Types of Ways
So first and foremost losing weight is truly HARD!!!! Like I been knew this but I felt like I should get that main thought out of my head before I ramble on. I really just don't understand how it is so easy to gain but so hard to lose ugh!!!!! I feel as though I have been fighting this uphill battle my whole life (because I have) and the people around me (outside of my family circle) do not understand my pain.
I have always been a bigger girl but back in high school I lost like 50 or so pounds and became this different person lol. I was BEAUTIFUL and people started to notice it because of my weight loss. While I kept my weight off all through high school because I was active and when I seen that I was gaining weight I would just stop eating or something. As soon as I started college that is when I started yo-yoing like it was my job. I would pick up during school and then lose it when I went home for the summer and I did this for 4 years straight until I went to grad school and just got tired of dieting and exercising. So while I was in grad school I wasn't too concern about my weight, only when I went home for holidays. Though I gave up on dieting I was still uncomfortable in my skin and I think I avoided home because I knew people would talk about my weight gain.
Then finally last December God showed me that I needed to get it together and that is when it dawn on me.... I need to be healthy for me and no one else and if the pounds shed then they shed. I turned over a knew leaf and started investing in my life. Like I enjoy learning about healthy foods and exercising. I love trying new workouts and know I have to get some form of exercise in my life or just won't feel right. Before I left Missouri to go home I felt like a new woman. I worked hard to get where I am right now and I really don't want to turn around....
So now you are probably asking why is she writing this LONG blog..... Well right now I am feeling all types of ways because I am not feeling pretty right now and I am feeling FAT (yes I said that horrible word). I feel like you all have only seen the positive side of my weight loss journey because I am hiding the other side from you and also from myself. But God opened my eyes yesterday and is revealing to me that not only do I need to work on my healthy lifestyle, I need to work on my confidence as well.
Yesterday I should have known something was going to go down because I just wasn't feeling it at all. My mother and I did some errands and she was like "go get you some pants at Lane Bryant". So you know I was pumped like yea I can see what size I am and maybe I would look a little better in some of the clothes they have......... WRONG!!!! So I did go down a size in Lane Bryant's pants but when I was trying on the clothes I just felt so ugly and fat. Like I just felt like a short chubby person trying on clothes. I mean this really didn't affect my mood because I thought to myself, you know its just how Lane Bryant cuts their clothes, they really don't think about the short person with curves that much. So I left the store with some confidence.
Well that same day I was invited to a girl's graduation party that I went to high school with but something told me not to go. So I was at home doing my hair and was just planning for a day of relaxation.... WRONG!!!!!! My friend called me and asked me if I would go with her and I was like sure why not..... Ok so I knew I would run into some folks from high school at this party but most of them would be younger than me so I wasn't really nervous about going (I was but really didn't care). So for my outfit I put on some skinny jeans that I just brought and a vest.... I wasn't feeling great but I was like hey the outfit will do.
The party was really nice but like I said I really didn't know most of the people so I was just sitting there. While I was there I was talking to the people I came with and this is where everything went downhill!!!!!! My exboyfriend and his girl friend walks in and I felt so uncomfortable and ready to go.... Ok I know me an my ex have not been together for like 5 years now but it was just seeing him with his girl and me feeling like this HUGE balloon who was still single and was basically single since I was with him.... I just didn't want to make eye contact with him at all.
Like why am I feeling this why ya'll?! Like I probably don't even cross his mind..... but I had to leave.... I felt so uncomfortable and ugly, and I am still feeling this way. Now I just keeping that I wish I would have never gained all this weight, I wish I could erase my past, I wish I had more confidence. I wish, I wish, I wish......
Sorry about this post but I had to write something to get some of these feelings out of me.
I have always been a bigger girl but back in high school I lost like 50 or so pounds and became this different person lol. I was BEAUTIFUL and people started to notice it because of my weight loss. While I kept my weight off all through high school because I was active and when I seen that I was gaining weight I would just stop eating or something. As soon as I started college that is when I started yo-yoing like it was my job. I would pick up during school and then lose it when I went home for the summer and I did this for 4 years straight until I went to grad school and just got tired of dieting and exercising. So while I was in grad school I wasn't too concern about my weight, only when I went home for holidays. Though I gave up on dieting I was still uncomfortable in my skin and I think I avoided home because I knew people would talk about my weight gain.
Then finally last December God showed me that I needed to get it together and that is when it dawn on me.... I need to be healthy for me and no one else and if the pounds shed then they shed. I turned over a knew leaf and started investing in my life. Like I enjoy learning about healthy foods and exercising. I love trying new workouts and know I have to get some form of exercise in my life or just won't feel right. Before I left Missouri to go home I felt like a new woman. I worked hard to get where I am right now and I really don't want to turn around....
So now you are probably asking why is she writing this LONG blog..... Well right now I am feeling all types of ways because I am not feeling pretty right now and I am feeling FAT (yes I said that horrible word). I feel like you all have only seen the positive side of my weight loss journey because I am hiding the other side from you and also from myself. But God opened my eyes yesterday and is revealing to me that not only do I need to work on my healthy lifestyle, I need to work on my confidence as well.
Yesterday I should have known something was going to go down because I just wasn't feeling it at all. My mother and I did some errands and she was like "go get you some pants at Lane Bryant". So you know I was pumped like yea I can see what size I am and maybe I would look a little better in some of the clothes they have......... WRONG!!!! So I did go down a size in Lane Bryant's pants but when I was trying on the clothes I just felt so ugly and fat. Like I just felt like a short chubby person trying on clothes. I mean this really didn't affect my mood because I thought to myself, you know its just how Lane Bryant cuts their clothes, they really don't think about the short person with curves that much. So I left the store with some confidence.
Well that same day I was invited to a girl's graduation party that I went to high school with but something told me not to go. So I was at home doing my hair and was just planning for a day of relaxation.... WRONG!!!!!! My friend called me and asked me if I would go with her and I was like sure why not..... Ok so I knew I would run into some folks from high school at this party but most of them would be younger than me so I wasn't really nervous about going (I was but really didn't care). So for my outfit I put on some skinny jeans that I just brought and a vest.... I wasn't feeling great but I was like hey the outfit will do.
The party was really nice but like I said I really didn't know most of the people so I was just sitting there. While I was there I was talking to the people I came with and this is where everything went downhill!!!!!! My exboyfriend and his girl friend walks in and I felt so uncomfortable and ready to go.... Ok I know me an my ex have not been together for like 5 years now but it was just seeing him with his girl and me feeling like this HUGE balloon who was still single and was basically single since I was with him.... I just didn't want to make eye contact with him at all.
Like why am I feeling this why ya'll?! Like I probably don't even cross his mind..... but I had to leave.... I felt so uncomfortable and ugly, and I am still feeling this way. Now I just keeping that I wish I would have never gained all this weight, I wish I could erase my past, I wish I had more confidence. I wish, I wish, I wish......
Sorry about this post but I had to write something to get some of these feelings out of me.
May 21, 2010
May 05, 2010
My first food journal based off of pictures!!!!!
Dinner: Vegetables (1.5pts) and chicken (guessing 6pts)
Dessert: Weight Watchers Chocolate and Brownie Ice Cream (2pts)
New way of accountability for me
Hey everybody!!!!! So I know I have been slipping on my pimping with my blog posts but my life has been so crazy lately. I have been writing papers like its my job!!!!! But you know what I am done with all my classes and just now patiently waiting to graduate. Friday is so close!!!!!
Ok back to why I started the post in the first place. So I love how people post what they eat during the day to keep them accountable on their healthy lifestyle, and I want to do the same. I think with my picture posts people will give me ideas or advice on how to get more variety in my diet. Today is my first day that I will be doing this so get excited to see my meals for the day!!!!!
Ok back to why I started the post in the first place. So I love how people post what they eat during the day to keep them accountable on their healthy lifestyle, and I want to do the same. I think with my picture posts people will give me ideas or advice on how to get more variety in my diet. Today is my first day that I will be doing this so get excited to see my meals for the day!!!!!
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